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Well Heres a Short Version of Our Relationship..
Ok so where do I start? Well it all began on an ordinary normal
day just living my life. I was sitting in the computer room playing yahoo pool on the internet. Never though any thing of
it was just there to play some pool and have fun. A girl came in my room and we started a game of yahoo pool. We were chatting
and just talking how ever i was annoying the hell out of her. She thought I was pretty damn weird and I keep telling
her I loved her when i did not even know her. She thought I was crazy but some how she ended up giving me her AIM
screename. Dont ask me why in the hell she did but she did. So one day I aimed her and we started to talk and i asked
her if she had any pictures of herself. She said yes and sent me a picture of a gorgeous girl. Later to find out that it was
not eve really her. How ever that did not stop me from talking to her. So I started thinking and wondering is that
really her? I did not believe her so I asked her to call my friends cell phone. She agreed and called My friend Tommy's cell
phone and everyone was affraid to pick the phone up. So I decided to pick it up myself and we started talking. I dont know
how someone calling you can prove thats really them in there picture but what ever. So we started talking on the phone for
about 5 minutes. She seemed really cool so after we hung up we chatted a little more on AIM. Eventulley we started talking
more and more on AIM. Then we started chatting on the phone more and more. She seemed like a pretty awesome girl. So we talked
for a few weeks and then I asked her the question. Will you go out with me? She screamed and got all happy and said yes! I
was pretty excited myself! So we started dating and would talk about everyday every second we had a chance to! We would talk
every second possible and there would be times where i was grounded and i would sneak on the internet just to get to talk
to her for 2 minutes. It was the most amazing feeling being able to talk to her! As time went by it was already 6 months into
our relationship and everything was perfect. Like a dream come true. I did not care that i had never met the girl, couldnt
touch her, kiss her, hug her, or even hold her. Though that would of been even more amazing her voice alone was enough for
me to fall in love with her. the joy of talking to her was so amazing that i would do anything to talk to the girl. Her name
was Kim. Kimberly Marie Hamlin a name i will NEVER forget. I use to have trouble spelling her middle name cause I always spelled
it with a A instead of an e. I finally got that down pat though. We would stay up all night and talk on the phone and literally
talk 9 hors at a time! We never got tired of eachother and we loved it! The one thing she told me recently that she missed
about talking to me was how we could not talk for long periods of time and not feel weird. Because with any one else i had
ever talked to on the phone if they did not talk i would hang up. With her it was different and the same for her she felt
weird doing that and she would hang up on people to. We were perfect for each other and i dont care what any one says. Every
day at school i would get made fun of for dating a girl i never met and that lived in michigan. How ever you know what? I
did not care what any one though because know one knew how i truely felt about her and thats all that mattered to me. We also
use to have this thing where we would kiss each other over the phone and we called it fishy kisses. It was really amazing
and i will never forget that! Basically the first 6 months of our relationship was the best time I have ever had in my life
still to this day! I wouldnt change it for any thing! We use to write letters in the mail to eachother and i remember i sent
her about a 17 page letter with 150 reasons why i loved her on it. She adored it and make her little sounds she makes when
she got happy! I also remember when i saved up all my christmas money and bought her a ring for her! She sent me in the mail
about 140 dollors for a racket i wanted because I played tennis at the time. She would write me all the time. I have saved
all the letters she sent me and have them in a place where i will never lose them. In fact i have saved everything she has
ever sent me! From a tampon(long story) to a braclet to a necklace to everything she ever sent me. It felt like i was with
her everyday but I really was not. The distance did not matter what so ever! So a little more time had went by and we were
doing amazing. Eventulley things started to fall apart. I had heard that she was talking to my best friend Tom. He told me
that they were friends and that he did not like her at all. So did Kim and i trusted them both. How ever kim ended up telling
me that he liked her and all this other good stuff. So i confronted tom and talked to him and he admited everything to me
and i told him he needed to stop talking to her.He did so and Kim still to this day denies ever liking him or anything like
that. It was hard for me to trust her because when they told me they stopped talking they were still talking. they eventulley
stopped for good but it hurt alot seeing my own best friend like the girl i was in love with and he wanted to be with her.
he had wrote her a note saying that I treat her like shit and that she should break up with me and be with him. I got that
letter from kim because she had it still and sent it to me in the mail. I wanted to kill Tom I couldnt believe he had said
the things he had said about me and how he wanted to be with her it just hurt and tore me apart. How ever that was just
the beginning of problems. Ever since that day i had problems trusting her. I became obsessed with her and started reading
her emails, myspace, and would go on her AIM and act like her. It was a little scary but i was so affraid that she was going
to cheat on me or leave me or something. I started to hear rumors that she had been cheating on me with guys and was having
sex and i didnt know what to do! I immediately would always jump to conclusions and flip out on her and didnt give her a chance
to explain. I never knew what to believe and it was so hard for me to trust her. Eventulley it was about a year in now and
we started to get along a little better again. Things were still not the same but we still talked all the time and would do
what ever we could to talk to eachother. She would go to her dances and not even dance with one guy as she told me! She was
an amazing girlfriend but things were just not the same. We started argueing all the time over the dumbest things. Mostly
all to do with trust issues. It was so hard to handle and there would be so many times where we would be in a arguement and
my aunt would tell me to get off the computer or off the phone and it always felt like if i didnt solve and figure out our
problem before i went to bed that there would be no tomorrow. So I always wanted to have her happy before we went to be and
me and my aunts arguements would get pretty bad but somehow I always managed to make sure things were ok. If i couldnt
I would contact her ASAP the next day. A little more time had went by and I started talking to a girl named Brittanya and
I had a crush on her and i started talking more and more to her. The night before I dumped Kim I told her that she meant
the world to me and that I would never leave her for anyone! I also told her how much I loved her! I dont know why I said
all those things and then dumped her the next day but it was the worse thing i could have ever done. Kim was so hurt and upset
she cryed night over night! Eventulley i realized with Brittany that she wasnt the one for me and that Kim was! I started
talking to Kim again and she hated me! I told her sorry every night and that i would never do it again! I also told her that
i did stuff with the girl Brittany and i believe ever since i told her that things were never the same! We started dating
again and things were back to the way they were. We were argueing every day and we would make up but argue non stop over the
dumbest things. There was simply no trust and you cant have a sucessful relationship with no trust! Time went by and It was
homcoming for her and she went and she didnt call me at all and then weeks went by and i hadnt heard from her! I was so miserable
and upset that i didnt know what to do! Eventulley I got ahold of her and she broke up with me. I cryed for about 2 months
straight every night before i went to bed! I didnt know what to do with myself i just felt like my whole world had ended.
She meant the world to me and I know alot of people say they would do anything for their girlfriends but I would HONESTLY
do ANYTHING for this girl. Im writing this as of July 12, 2007 and we have been broken up for about 8-9 months. Im still not
over her and i highly dout i ever will be! She is in love with another man right now and shes a happy girl. Im happy
that shes happy but i hope and wish everyday i could be the one to make her happy again! I dont think I will have another
chance with her ever again but god if i do i would be the happyest guy alive. I wasnt the perfect boyfriend i should have
been but we did date for two years and i was completely loyal to her and never thought twice of cheating her. I regret dating
that girl more than any thing i have ever done! If i could take only one thing back in my life it would be that! I have broken
so many promises to her, treated her like shit at times, been obsessive, to jealous, and much more. I deffinitely was not
perfect but as she always tells me people change and that is correct. Im a changed man thanks to her and myself. Ive come
to realize alot of things in life and alot of things about relationships. I just wish she knew how much i have changed and
how i would do any thing for her. Kim if your reading this i love you! you gave me the idea of this site so im doing all this
for you and gave the people on here a short version of our "been through everything" relationship.
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